Ask-i Hayal

Sevmek seni,
Zor değil, ân meselesi.
Peki ya sonrası?
Çarem mi, çaresizliğim misin?
Nesin?
Kimsin sen?
Hadi, anlat bana içimde ki 'seni'

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Rüzgar okşa onun saçlarını benim yerime.. fısılda kulağına sevdiğimi..

Rüzgar dolaş onun etrafında dön gel bana, getir onun bıraktığı nefesi..

Sırılsıklam aşığım.. sarılsa kucaklasa.. kurusam koynunda.

Manasızca bağlıyım.. sussam konuşmasam duysa anlasa… 

Cliche

I learned the hard way that I cannot always count on others to respect my feelings, even if I respect theirs. Being a good person doesn't guarantee that others will be good people too. You only have control over yourself and how you choose to be as a person. As for others, you can only choose to accept them or walk away.

Everyone has had the experience of people coming into their lives. Everyone has had the experience of people leaving their lives. There is a reason for both.

He puts people together so they can learn something from each other. God keeps the two of you together long enough for that something to be imparted into each of your lives.

It is like the two of are working on two separate jigsaw puzzles. You hold the last piece to his puzzle, and he holds the last piece to yours. Neither puzzle can be complete without the other giving over that last piece.

What happens when the puzzle is complete?

When your mission with another person has been fulfilled, God will send that person out of your life. That is indeed not a bad thing. In fact, it is a good thing. It is God's way of saying you have learned everything you need to know from that person.

When God moves a person from your life, He is letting you know that you have learned everything you need to know from that person. That person has learned everything he needs to know from you. Then He places the two of you into two other lives to help them grow and develop.

Healthy Relationships with Your Siblings

I know that while growing up, your siblings are often the people who make you the angriest, most annoyed, and the last people on your list of people you want to spend time with.  However, they also are the people who most likely will be there for you in the end.  Here are some tips on how to keep the family bond from turning into a family feud!

1.       Make time for each other:  Whether you feel like it or not, I feel that spending time together is essential.  Plan some fun events to do such as playing cards, baking cookies, or going to a movie.  Showing your brother or sister  that you are willing to put all other things aside to spend time with them will really enhance your relationship

2.       Communicate: Taking the time to talk with your sibling is extremely important.  Not only would it be great to talk about all the positive things going on in their lives, but also the hard things.  Learning to be there for each other is beneficial.  Also learning how to communicate about how you are feeling in your relationship with them.  I always do my best to tell my siblings when I appreciate something or when something they said/did hurt my feelings.

3.       Listening:  Learning to communicate is one step, but the second step is listening.  You need to be willing to listen to how your sibling is feeling, even if you don’t agree with them.  If they feel hurt by you it doesn't matter what happened, what matters is that they feel hurt.  Do your best to focus more on their feelings and be quick to apologize.  Siblings seem to always try to justify their actions, but maybe try just saying sorry and see how that changes their response.

4.       Remembering:  It is important to remember the important things going on in their lives like birthdays, big projects, or special events they are participating in... If you can’t physically be there, do your best to write them a note to let them know that you are thinking about them.

5.       Being Trustworthy:  Treat your sibling with respect as you would treat your friend.  Be a faithful friend and don’t take the fact that they are your sibling no matter what for granted.  Also be on time and do what you said you would do with them, the way you would for a friend.

6.       Honesty:   Being willing to be honest with your sibling is a good thing, but also be willing to listen to their honesty to you.

In conclusion, the relationships you have with brothers and sisters are a beautiful thing even if you can’t see it right now.  The fact that they are always there can be hard, but really it’s the best part.  They will always be your sibling.  Take advantage of the fact that you have been given a person who will be a part of your life long term.  Some siblings grow apart as they become adults.  Some of the best friendships I have seen are the ones between siblings who put in the effort to be close and have a healthy relationship.  

Black Gold

“If Music is a Place -- then Jazz is the City, Folk is the Wilderness, Rock is the Road, Classical is a Temple.”
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 Sometimes when I listen to jazz, it makes me nostalgic. Either for a period of time in my own life, or a period of time I wasn't alive for. Like, sometimes I listen to older jazz albums, and I sometimes wish I was walking around the streets of NYC, at dusk, in the 1950s.

But, jazz almost never makes me sad, if anything, it inspires me, or at least makes me feel better (like the blues), or makes me happy. Even the most painful solo from a sax player ("who hurt this man?") will overwhelm me with good vibes. This music is sometimes best on a rainy day.

Then there's fusion. 70s Miles is like taking a trip through the recesses of your mind, or other worlds. Sometimes, it's the dark depths of the jungle. 80s and 90s fusion sometimes makes me think of walking around a college campus, in the halls of a basement or something like that. Some of that late 90s/2000s fusion reminds me of walks I sometimes take at night.

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"Get scared. It will do you good. Smoke a bit, stare blankly at some ceilings, beat your head against some walls, refuse to see some people, paint and write. Get scared some more. Allow your little mind to do nothing but function. Stay inside, go out - I don’t care what you’ll do; but stay scared as hell. You will never be able to experience everything. So, please, do poetical justice to your soul and simply experience yourself."

— Albert Camus, Notebooks 1951-1959

 

Her Gün Seninle

Ümit Yaşar Oğuzcan

Güzel olan
Her günü seninle tekrar tekrar yaşamak
Erimek yarını olmayan zamanlarda
Durdurmak bir yerde bütün saatleri
Bütün kuralları kırıp parçalamak
Sonra varmak o yerlere
Mevsimlere dur demek
Kar yağarken çiçek açtırmak ağaçlara
Güneşi bir akşam saatinde tutup bırakmamak
Sonra doldurmak ay ışığını kadehlere
Delicesine içmek
Ve unutabilmek her şeyi ansızın
Sevmek seni en yücesiyle sevgilerin
Birlikte geçmiş, gelecek bütün çağları aşmak
Güzel olan
Sevmek seni Tanrılar gibi
Seninle Tanrılaşmak...
 
Bir gün bu akan sele dur diyeceğim, göreceksin
Ne bu şehir kalacak 
Ne bu duygusuz sürü
Bu korkunç kalabalık
Her vapur seni getirecek bana
Bütün istasyonlarda seni bekleyeceğim
Kapılar sana açılacak
Senin için söylenecek şarkılar
Şiirler senin için yazılacak
Her evde bir resmin
Her meydanda bir heykelin olacak
Ve sen kimi gün bir rüzgar gibi
Kimi gün denizler gibi, bulutlar gibi 
Kopup ötelerden, ötelerden
Yalnız bana geleceksin
Bir gün bu akan sele dur diyeceğim göreceksin.
 
Ben eskimeyen tek güzelliği sende gördüm
Sende buldum erişilmez hazları
Yanında sıyrıldım korkulardan, yalanlardan
Duyguların en ölmezini sende duydum
Susuzluğum dudaklarında dindi
Yalnızlığım ellerinde
Çoğu gün unuttum açlığımı
Sende doydum...
 
İlk defa seninle bütünlendim, anlıyor musun
Anladım yaşadığımı her nefes alışta
Seninle geçtim bütün zamanlardan
Seninle var oldum
Eridim seninle bir sonsuz çalkanışta.
 
Boynunda bir yer vardır, ben bilirim
Ne zaman oradan öpsem, 
Değişir gözlerinin rengi
Yanar dudakların, terler avuçların
Dökülür kapkara aydınlık gibi
Omuzlarına saçların
Gitgide artar kalbinin vuruşları
Bir musiki halinde dünyamı doldurur
Ansızın bütün sesler kesilir
Zaman durur
Bir baş dönmesi başlar o en yükseklerde
Her gün seninle yeniden var oluruz
Eriyip kaybolduğumuz yerde...
 
Sesini duymadığım gün
Yaşanmış değil
Açan çiçek değil
Öten kuş değil
Yüzünü görmediğim gün
İçimde yıldızlar sönük
Güneşler güneş değil
Seni sevmediğim gün
Seni anmadığım gün
Olacak iş değil...
 
Her günüm seninle geçsin
O güneşe en yakın
Kimsenin varamayacağı bir dağ başında
Uçsuz bucaksız uzak denizlerde
İnsan ayağı değmemiş ormanlarda
Uzaklarda, en uzaklarda
O gemilerin uğramadığı limanlarda
Işığım ol, alınyazım ol benim
Vatanım ol, evim ol
Yeter ki bir ömür boyu benim ol
Her günüm seninle geçsin...

The City

by Constantine Cavafy 

translated by Rae Dalven

You said,
"I will go to another land, I will go to another sea.
Another city will be found, a better one than this.
Every effort of mine is a condemnation of fate;
and my heart is — like a corpse — buried.
How long will my mind remain in this wasteland.
Wherever I turn my eyes, wherever I may look
I see black ruins of my life here,
where I spent so many years
destroying and wasting."

You will find no new lands, you will find no other seas.
The city will follow you.
You will roam the same streets.
And you will age in the same neighbourhoods;
and you will grow gray in these same houses.
Always you will arrive in this city.
Do not hope for any other —
There is no ship for you, there is no road.
As you have destroyed your life here
in this little corner,
you have ruined it in the entire world.